A SAD DAY- REVISITED

Last evening, my sweet Wheaton Terrier AJ had to be put to sleep. He was 12 1/2 and had recently developed a bone degenerative disease or a cancer, or maybe even a massive infection. He quite possibly had another type of cancer as he quickly developed many, many small bumps (tumors?) all over his body except for his belly.
He actually went to the vet for his annual checkup in mid May, and except for typical senior dog type of stuff, he got a clean bill of health. He quickly went downhill after that, limping and bearing no weight on his right rear leg, and we would seem to find new little bumps every time we pet him.
I took him back to the Dr. and they gave me the dx no one wants to hear. Since there was a possibilty that it was a bad infection, we came home with pain meds and an antibiotic. It soon became clear it was more than an infection.
I helplessly watched as my ever energetic boy limped around and then lay still as much as he could. There was no tail wagging, his voiced also silenced. My boy was never too much of a good eater, and that became a huge problem. His vet said to feed him anything that he wanted- even pizza, just to get something down him. I made a special mixture of scrambled eggs, ground beef and rice, which he liked for a few days. Then it was deli turkey, then hot dogs, chicken nuggets, and yes, for 2 days he ate Papa Johns pizza.
I was watching him fade away in front of my eyes. He was totally a Mamas boy, and I loved him that way. He slept in his bed as close to mine as he could get, until he could no longer climb the stairs.
Yesterday, after refusing all food, and having only eaten 1 chicken nugget and 2 bites of Keilbasa the day before, he could barely stand for even a few seconds, and that was with me picking him up and trying to help him. My boys time was done on this earth.
In a sad twist of fate, I have just gone thru this terrible process almost 5 months to the day with my Lab fur baby~ Madison. I have not yet gotten over losing her, and then this. At times it is too much to bear. I love my pets as my family. When I went to the beach this weekend, I no sooner put our stuff down, and I looked up to the sky. I saw this cloud that looks just a dog to me. I think it was Madison, she was calling AJ home to play.

Run and play my sweet babies, I miss you both dearly...